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Promise are meant to be Broken?????

2010-08-08T21:42:00.002+08:00

Today took medicine and slept also the whole day......when i woke up i start to msg Patbob as i noe she is still upset that she will not be able to see us so often le...we talk about NPS...and i realize that he had bluff mi as yesterday he promised to msg Patbob to cheer her up but he didn't, i am really dam angry as i treat promises seriously...if i noe that he will not msg her, i would have forgo my slp and pei her....Patbob told mi to learn tot take promises lightly as promises are meant to be broken...then i replied If its this way then i will just rename promises as CRAP!! What for promise when you don intend to do it???

I get hurt by friends easily as i mark them for their words hence if they change their mind or did not do something, i will get very upset....then often say that i never say this, i never say that...nut their action shows! Action specks Louder then Words!!! Hence i have decided to leave these two ppl alone although i will miss them but i would rather end our best friend friend ship now then later as you won't be happy and i will get hurt by your actions even more....I really treat promises seriously and breaking them will break the bonds between us as best friend!

After all i am still happy as i still have Patbob, 7 Flowers and my BF...Thanks for being by my side even knowing that i am not a good friend or a good Gf...Really thank you and LOVE YOU ALL!!!
Lastly, i have to say once again don promise mi things easily as i will mark your words and i treat them SERIOUSLY!!!

SYOG @ NYP ---- NYP!!!!!!!!

2010-08-08T20:56:00.003+08:00

Suppose to meet Patbob at 9.45am at school Bus stop....However received a msg from her saying, lets meet earlier at 9.30am for Mac breakfast...:) then i woke up earlier to start preparing...it was about to rain when i was leaving my house...to prevent myself from getting caught in the rain, i walk at a faster speed as compared to normally....i was dam lucky as the moment i reached the bus stop, it started to rain...however, the rain gets heavier and heavier....

What make it worse was that the wind started to blow and i was nearly all wet....the bus came and i was like freezing in there...i msg patbob and she said her side haven start to rain yet... true indeed her side was not raining, when i reach school's Bus stop, it was also not raining. However, after a while it stared to rain and the rain got heavier. i was wet but not totally wet....what was really irritating was that the wind blew the rain water on to my face...

When Patbob arrive, we went to pack Mac and ate on the way to SU room...we had Full Dress rehearsal and security Check before the actual event.....i was anxiously waiting for my partner, Chris, as she went for Coke motivator and has yet to come back for Flashmob....i was very scared to dance alone when everyone else has a partner....

What was worse was that when Chirs arrive, she was not allowed to come down to behind the gallery seats and join us...i was super scared and upset.....i when to ask my group leader, he was shock to heard about that however he ask mi to dance alone as there is nothing he can do, he also ensure mi that its not award to dance alone...then i was like okay and returned to my seat beside patbob.....next what had enlighten mi to smile again was that chris came in by the side and appear in front of mi i was so super relive and i when forward to hug her...she was just in time as the next performance is out Flashmob dance!!! Xp

After the whole event, i gave Patbob and chris a hug before going off to find my bf Xp....my bf piggy back mi home as he noe that i was very tired....however, after he send mi home, he went off to play MJ with his friends...i went to bath and then to slp as i was having gastric again and fever :(......

I was really sad that this event ended and i won't get to see patbob, NPS, KZQ and JK that often anymore....i was even more upset bec i could comfort Patbob and requested NPS to help mi as i really need to slp....NPS agreed and i was less sad as at least someone can pei her and she is not being alone :)....

Last week of SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-08T20:27:00.002+08:00

Haha one week never blog....i was busy with test and FLashmob the whole week....After Flashmob i was so dam tired that after i bath , i went slp without eating my dinner Xp...

Test on monday, i know had no chance of passing the module. Althought it was MCQ but the qns that come out were those that i never eally learn...:( Haizs... For Weds Excel, i thought that the qns was very difficult thats why it took mi a very long time to come out with the very complicated formula and i got the ans right...However, the actual ans was very easy and that qns was not difficult at all...after hearing that i was super sad...what for think so hard when the ans is just as simple as 123?? My Mood was rune by this test!!

On thurs, i patbob and friends when to Pizzahut For lunch...its been a long time since i had Pizza Hut...really enjoyed the lunch with them....However i did not have dinner hence had Gastric at night until i could not move...i could not doing anything except trying to get some slp to get over the pain:(....

On Friday, i went back to sch with Patbob to find Mr. cheong. Purpose is to ask for the camp buget & if outsiders are allowed to help out in the camp? However, the ans was $2000 & no Respectively..:(
After that we went to Compass point to buy Famous Amos and then headed down to Bishan for Pepper Lunch....Next we went back to sch and slp in the library for 2 hours before Flashmob XD
we were super tired and Flashmob ended late too....once i reach home, i bathed and went to slp, Can't even wait for my hair to dry...Xp

don noe wat title to put Xp

2010-07-31T21:24:00.002+08:00

Maybe is i misunderstood le what i still feel that i should say out so i don feel guilty posting just now the post...Xp...haha for today what i do is cooking whole day! cook porridge for lunch for my dad cause his leg swollen cannot go to work then i cook dinner....alot of dish so spend almost whole day preparing :)....got Steam fish, cauliflower with my special sauce, steam chicken feet, wu xiang is my mum bought home one, carrot soup and mushroom! haha today something really upset mi but i getting over it so le:P...tmr going children's walk bbut i don noe how to go cause as some of you noe i am a lu chi.. so noe find out how to go..:) sad i can't pei my dad go see doctor tmr cause of that i feel that i very bu xiao but luckily tmr got my sis bring him so i not so worry :) some thing surprise mi today as i did not tell this friend that i am sad about something but then i receive a msg from her asking what happen to mi? then i was dam shock how she noes about it i ask is it someone told her she say no la cause i never msg her...then i like chey i thought we got xin dian gan ying that why she don need i say she also noe i got problem....haha but if i really found someone who have xin dian gan ying with mi i will be dam happy!...thats all for today le:) nights tmr need to wake up early!!

What kind of "friend" am i to you all?

2010-07-31T18:31:00.003+08:00

Grrrr!!!!!! i am really dam pissed of with you all! am i your friend or your "friend"....signing things up together yet i am always the one that get no news or get the news of you all not going last min! why? Firstly was commissioning next we agreed on helping out for accreditation we sign up together some of you all say 7 days alot then ask if two days can? now when sign already just left the photo part what did you all do, sign up for coke.... honestly that day i ws piss off but i just kept quiet i noe i had once sign up but i cancel off cause i thought for a while since i promise QY first then i will not don go but what you all say just sgin up first even when knowing that you cannot reject it after all.... and i feel that i was such a dumb to believe you all....next was YOG flash mob on tues wait until tues morning then i noe that you all are not going now is Children walk i know you all have reason and the reason is bec of the coke thing but have you all thought of how i feel when leaving mi alone to go for everything? Do you all noe that i need to please my dad in order to go for all these event and pleasing him is not as easy as 123? i noe i have a choice not to go but i always do what i promise...... i am really dam pissed off cause you all are my best friends but have you all the thought of my feeling before deciding....seriously i am dam up sad now i don how to say about our friendship maybe i am just not the friend i thought i was to you all maybe i am just extra or maybe i am just nothing to you all....if anyone of you had read and feel that i am unreasonable then just take it as i am cause you all really do not noe mi well if enough............i am really sry to hurt you all but i cannot take it le...just let mi vent out my anger and i maybe okay sooner or later depends on my mood..

Its not my day:(

2010-07-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today woke up late cause yesterday slp quite late...Xp don noe why these few days cannot eat or slp well:(....i was luckily enough to get on bus on time if not i sure late for lecture. however lecture started at 8 but i reach around 7.50...so lucky lor Xp...today i heard that patbob want to go for the YOG ceremony so i tried to get 2 tickets from those who have so that i can pei her go...luckily enough, P.D and "Annoying Orange" don want to go then give mi the ticket. I want to thank P.S for helping ask around although you did not manage to get for us..:) However,but received my mum msg that my dad leg swollen need someone to bring him go see doctor then i never go and gave Julia the two ticket and she get someone else to go....Met my bf in the library...really miss him a lots cause almost got 1 week never see each other le....then after my bf go, P.D and friends came to sit with mi then they study and i play game however out of 3 of them only one was so call studying and another was last min studying as in study for the last 20 mins...the third one hais... playing and making alot of noisy all the way....i talk to them nobody ans mi i feel that i am rally invisible lor...and honestly i hate that feeling and that is also why i don like to be with a big group of ppl as i tend to be neglected or become invisible....what was worse is that an hour later i received my dad msg that he went to see doctor le but i gave my ticket away le then i was like hais sian....really wondering how was the event??....came home the first person i look for is my dad, finding out wats going on... when i saw his leg being bandaged and cannot walk my heart really aches as my dad is getting older and older yet he still have to suffer...:( really heart aching:(...that's all for today... byeeeeeee!!

Revive my blog!!

2010-07-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

Looks like i have not post for a year le...Xp.......hahas HI blog long time no see!!!...don noe why today i suddenly feel like blogging>..<...hahas.Hmm let mi see what should i say leh? Firstly is finally projects are over leeeeeeee!!! YiPeeeeeeeee!!!haha really had alot of stress when the date line are near but however i will not forget the time we been through as a group!!! All the fun and laughter!!! haha miss you all man!!!....secondly arh lets talk about AMK hub!!! today when AMK before going for flashmob... when with Patbob,"pei ling", lee keng and a new friend name Xxxx... haha i forgot le...Xp but i got ps by someone really dam sad lor....nvm angry awhile can le..if not later ppl say i xiao qi....next is i don noe should i or should i not quit_ _? all those who noe just don say out pls cause i don want any conflict or anything la...hahas now my mind stuck le cannot think of waht to write so BYeeeeeeeee!!! :)

Do you care for mi?

2009-06-11T16:57:00.000+08:00

Wow i am back to write again....sorry my blog for leaving you alone for so long.......i was really dam sick on Tuesday and when to sms my DAR but he never reply........maybe he sleep le cause he was also sick ma......me sick but still have to study SS as the next day got test....so unlucky every time got test will get sick wan....the next day i was very sad cause my DAR didn't intend to fetch and when out with his poly friends......i am sick but he seems uncared.....how can this be happening?that night he did come to my house intention was to Pei mi but Pei mi awhile then go play dota le....so sad lor....today after sch i call him then he say you wan mi to fetch you izzit ? can i stay at home? i thought that he was sick so i went up to his house to find him....GUess what he was playing with his computer games.....then he send mi home jiu went home le......i am really very hurt.....DOes he still care for mi? How important am i to him? am i less important then a game?Can you pls give mi an ans?

moody moody me.....

2009-05-25T16:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday i think shermin she angry with me cause i never Pei her go eat recess then today we never talk at all lor....so sad....sob sob

today got back SA1 papers, results dam bad....nearly cried in class......i wonder next week the parents meet how? what will Mrs bu tell my parents....what will my parents do when they see my results? really dam depressed and sad now...want to someone but everyone is not free.....maybe i just have to wait BA......next week Monday O level Chinese...How? so scare and stress.....i know can retake but i don;t want i want at least a A2 for Chinese.....

Under the HOT sum.....

2009-05-15T17:22:00.000+08:00

Hehe...time to blog again.....

Wed......
nothing much to share just studied biology.....

Thurs.......
when home after amath paper 2, results should be so so BA.....at home i continue to study biology....very stress, stress until i broke down as the words just can't be registered in my brain....starts to don't understand a lot of things and making up them....really dam stress....
Luckily i called my DAR DAR, he calm me down and cheer me up.....i was very happy that he is always there when i am down.....at night he came and help me jia you....and thus i became more concentrated on my work.......

Friday......
Today, after bio paper then i went home to get myself prepared to go out with my DAR....such a long time never go out with him Le.....we went to fauna IT mall, aiya don't how to spell la....go buy his laptop charge....his one bao zhao la need to buy new one......took a cab there and then found out there don;t have his type of charge, dam sad leh....pay cab fare $12 plus for toy for me but spent $30 still got no luck nothing.....loll...

Next we wanted to go PS....guess how we go there.....WALK.....i suggested it....cause want to Pei him longer alone by his side without any noisy.....it was a hot day so he went to cheers to buy water for me.....then about ten to fifteen minutes later we reach PS......we ate then BBQ chicken rice, introduced by my sister.....then i dam waste food....we order two plate of that.....and i gave him half of my share, the chicken i ate a bit only then never eat Le....Haiz so dam waste food....its not i don;t like to eat but just don;t know why i can;t eat.......later after that he went to catch soft so never got a soft toy....he saw me very sad so he bring me go buy one...the soft toy looks like the ajisan girl.....guess how much it cost........$20 and its a medium size soft toy...if we had not went to catch soft toy, we would have an extra $10......I love the soft toy a lot.....as i always do.....after that then he send me home in a cab again...as he scared i will reach home after the time given for me to go out with him.......

Thanks DAR for today, i really enjoyed myself today and really hope there are more chance for us to go out alone........

three day post

2009-05-12T16:46:00.000+08:00

Had a quarrel with him on Sunday, made me cried until my eyes really became puffer fish's eye...big and puffy.....luckily the next day got no school ........that night after the quarrel,he came to find me around mid-night to sort things out......we had became closer after the quarrel and the talk.......the next day i woke up early in the morning to practice for today's maths paper....really dam stress a lot of the questions don't know how to do......luckily got DAR to help me at night then i know how to do le.......today the paper should be doing fine BA without careless mistakes.....must do well if not my SA1 really do until very badly...sobsob.....just now took a nap for about 2 hours...but still not enough leh still very tired...i guess i going to become piggy le....now need to cook dinner...so sian......

2009-05-09T20:05:00.000+08:00

hehe.....erm today quite a fine day although have stomach cramp.....very painful...slept for about 2 hours then go bath my dog......poor thing right stomach cramp still have to bath dog.......
When to buy flowers for my mum as mother's day present with my sister......when there look like a fool, i don even know how does the flower look like and the girl keep on laughing at us....she intro us some type...quite hard to decide which one looks nicer cause i know nothing about flower......went home gave to my mum....guess what....she nags at me....why spend money on this...but i know she love it just that she does not want us to waste money.........
help my mum cook dinner and my brother gf also eating.....i cook the new dish that i had created yesterday as requested by my father....
During dinner all of us sat down together and eat my brother gf was so dam quite......she must be very lonely at that point of time......well everything else when well except for my cramps...now studying maths exams coming again need to work hard........

My first post......

2009-05-08T19:26:00.000+08:00

Just finish a Marathon of 5 subjects.....continuing next week....RELAX first...
really did dam badly for this SA1..so dam depressed and sad now.....
Today...went to school for chemistry test...soso...after the test went home and RELAX MYSELF....tried to cook a new dish with mushrooms....not bad but still can improve...dare you to try it!.....
DAR when for match tonite,i here wishing them good luck....hope that they can win......
HAIZ..... don noe wat to get for my mum for mother day......anyone got suggestion?....i guess i am just talking to myself Ba cause haven even link anyone yet who will ans mi......HAHA...